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Thursday, July 1st, 2004
11:50 am - psychopaths are so annoying
Psychopath: also known as the anti-social personality disorder. these people tend to be very charming, very nice to be around, very smart they have no compasion, no guilt or remorse, no emotions, only rage and glee, they destroy you if you get on their enemies list. Ted Bundy was one of the most famous people to have anti-social personality disorder, or he was a "psychopath" Ted Bundy killed many women prostitutes. the way he managed to kill so many women was because he was very charming and friendly. he had no remorse or guilt for killing these women, not even when he got caught. the only thing he was upset about when he was caught was the fact that he had been caught.

the reason i write so much about a psychopath, is because i have come in contact with two people who i believe have anti-social personality disorder tendency's. they may not be full blown psychopaths, but they sure have some of the characteristics. i think these two also know who they are. that is right they are my ex-roomates. they are both freaking crazy. i am just warning you all right now to stay away from them, because that is all you can do when it comes to people like this. when i was living with them, they would brag about how they are just "evil" not to mention that they are pathological liars. they make up stories to better themselves. it's hard to know what they are doing, because they are so good at it.

I am the number one person on their enemies list, the reason i know that is because they have made a new attack on me, by calling my work and trying to either get me in trouble or trying to get me fired, i don't know what it was that they were trying to get out of that. the only hing i have o say to them is stay the fuck away from me and stay out of my life. quit making up all of these lies about things. you doing this will not get you anywhere, it doesn't make you a better person, it just shows exactly how crazy you are. as if everyone didn't already know that you guys are crazy, they sure do now, so anything you do, everyone will know that you were the ones that did it.

(5 Thangs | Do Yo Thang)

Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
6:04 pm - happy birthday to me
so today is my 20th birthday. doesn't feel much different. a lot of people called to wish me a happy birthday which really made me feel good. it's good to know that there are people out there who care about you.

on another note yesterday i found out that i have an anxiety problem and i need to go talk to a therapist about it. ever since i was a little kid i have had this phobia of night time, and having to go to sleep, (yah sounds stupid) i don't know what it is that i am afraid of,but i think i am afraid of being alone, or of something happening to me when i am alone. anyways it started going away about 5 years ago, but it has been coming back really bad lately. it's to the point where i would rather stay awake then go to sleep. i have to smoke either mad bowls to fall asleep, or take some heavy duty sleep medicine. when i smoke before i go to bed though i get even more scared because then paranoia sets in. so anyways how i know i am crazy is in my psych class yesterday we were talking about anxiety disorders, and everything my teacher was talking about pertained to me. well i decided that i would ask her for some advice, because she is a real psychologist, and she only teaches on the side, so i figured she would know something about it. well i told her my problem, and she said that i really need to go see a good therapist right away before i develop a really bad phobia for night time. she started asking me questions like do you fall asleep in the living room a lot, do you keep a television on while you fall asleep, if you stay awake do you do non constructive things, etc. and the answer to all of those questions was yes. i don't sleep in my room becuase i feel more comfortable in the living room because it's not enclosed with a door and it's wider open, i HAVE to have a tv on while i fall asleep or i freak out and my mind starts wandering about things like, someone is goin to kill me, or i hear all the little noises and get freaked the fuck out. when i stay awake i don't do anything constructive like maybe clean my room or something, instead i just sit on the couch and watch tv, because getting up to get something, or moving to go to the bathroom scares me to. yah i know i am crazy, i don't know what i am scared of, but it is a phobia like if someone were afraid of snakes (which i am sooooo afraid of) so yah now i am looking for a good therapist. :)

(2 Thangs | Do Yo Thang)

Friday, May 14th, 2004
2:02 am - memories
I was just reading some of my old posts and I used to write so much about my friends. This was the saddest one that i read because one of my old friends said this reminded them of me. I wish i was still that person, but we both went down different paths. This story now reminds me of her. I WISH THAT THIS STORY STILL REMINDED HER OF ME TO!



In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you
have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the
bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary
halls.

In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person w! ho helped
you stand up to the class bully.

In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their
lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

In fourth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing
to switch square dancing partners in gym so you wouldn't have to be stuck
do-si -do-ing with Nasty Nick or Smelly Susan.

In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on
the back of the bus for you.

In sixth grade your idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nick
or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if
they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy
the social studie! s homework from the night before that you had.

In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you
pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball but didn't laugh at you
when you finished and broke out into tears.

In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who would go to
a party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only
freshman there.

In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed
their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

In eleventh grade your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you
rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be
grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick or Susan, and found
you a date to the pr om.

In twelfth grade! your idea of a good friend was the person who helped
you pick out a college/university, assured you that you would get into
that college/university, helped you deal with your parents who were
having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on
the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they
congratulated you.

The summer after twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the !
person who helped you clean up the bottles from that party, helped you
sneak out of the house when you just couldn't deal with your parents,
assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back
together, you could make it through anything, helped you pack up for
university and just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes
at 18 years of memories you were leaving behind, and finally on those
last days of childhood, went out of their way to give you reassurance
that you would make it in college as well as you had these past 18 years,
and most importantly sent you off to college knowing you were loved.

Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the
better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you
figh! t off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at
times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten,
helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold
on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence,
goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your
mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when
they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly
loves you!

(2 Thangs | Do Yo Thang)

Thursday, May 13th, 2004
1:51 am - Keep on singing my song
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
and Nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change

That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
For everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live life
Take the time to look at what is mine

I see every lesson completely
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I'm gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song

I never wanna dwell on my pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day

Cos I'm about to
Say goodbye to every single lie
All the fears I've held too long inside
Everytime I felt I could try
All the negativity I had inside

For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I'm gonna carry on
I'm gonna keep on singing my song

everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see
All the good around me
They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe

I'm humanly unable to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time

In the end I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heaven above
I've made the decision
Never to give up
Til the I day I die no matter what I'm gonna carry on & keep on singing my song.....

(Do Yo Thang)

Monday, January 19th, 2004
10:50 am
well it's been a long time since i have done this whole posting thing...
alot has been going on in my life, entirely to much to put in one journal entry...
so many emotions, feelings, and actions have changed everything in my life...
i think about everything all the time, it sucks, there are so many things i want to say to people, so much curiosity about things that i want to know...i think back to this time a year ago and how things were so different and then i look and see how things are still the same, a little.
ross and i just celebrated our one year from when we went on our first date, it was fun we went to dinner and then we went to the monster trucks at the rose garden. we had a suite so it was way cool.
i think about my mexico trip so much..i don't really think of all the great fun i had while i was there but i think about how everyone that went with me is on such different paths than when we went...i guess that is all due to the fact that when we went to mexico we were just graduated from high school and still were in fact children who knew nothing about the changes we were going to face. when we went courtney was probably the closest one to me, i barely knew joanna and jessie, me, jill, and kiera were all just normal friends..that is what made the trip so awesome, we all were a group of people who really weren't that close, but the trip brought us closer. i imagine if i had a closer friend like rachel or someone there the trip may have been quite different, i probably wouldn't have spent so much time with courtney but more time with rachel just because we are closer. but i am happy that things turned out the way they did. on our trip we learned so much about one another, but now that i look back on my memories of the trip, i find myself wishing that things were back to they way they were when we went to mexico. i wish that i was that child again, i wish that the only thing i was worried about was whether or not i had enough money for my trip, i wish i still had my parents take all my responsibility from me, i wish everyone was back to the same people they were on the trip.

anyways enough wishing, now i want to write something to the people that i have been wanting to talk to for a while.

to all of you who didn't have a fair chance with me (i hope these people all know who they are) i just want you to know that i am sorry things ended the way they did with us, i wish i could have gotten to know you for you, rather than judging you by what other people told me about you. i want you to know that i don't hate you or that i don't dislike you. i am now trying to live my life to where i accept everyone and not to just jump to conclusions about people. i hope you can accept my apology, and maybe you can understand the changes that i am going through.

to all of you who have hurt me and not cared, i hope you can maybe take a step back to see how you are hurting not just me but others around you. i know you like to feel loved and accepted, but just because one person shows you that affection don't forget about everyone else who has been there for you. try harder. you have so much potential and you know it. get straightened out. and yes i am gonna pull out the drug card, take a look around at everything you are doing and ask yourself is the road that i am on right now going to take me to the place that i am planning on going. if that road is not taking you there then that doesn't mean you are doing anything wrong, it just means that you took a couple detours but you can get right back on that road to where you are going. and if you are going to get mad at what i am saying and you are going to try to say it's none of my business, you are right it is none of my business, but as a person who cares about you i am just trying to help you to see. i know you very well and i know you don't just change things about yourself for just anyone, but take a look around and ask yourself if you maybe you are doing things for yourself or for other people.

to you who have made me the maddest, i have no sympathy for you. you just come into my life change my friends around and everything else and then you try to kick me out of it all...i don't care what you have to say about me, but don't try to pursuade everyone else to feel the way you feel about me, let them make there own decisions for themselves. the only thing that holds me back from saying everything i want to say about you is the fact that you scare me. not you but what you will say back to me, you have a really scary way of saying the right thing to make someone feel terrible about themselves. i honestly think you have no good intentions in life, you feed off of what others give you. all you do is take take take. hell you couldn't even pay your own bills, you had to have someone else do that for you, and then you did what you do best, you kicked them out, just like you kicked me out. once you are done with someone you chew them up and spit them out and move onto your next victim. that is why you are so good at what you do, you make people feel great about themselves, you make them feel like all of your attention is on them, and that is why it hurts so bad when you leave them because you are such a coward and can't tell them why. i hate you as a person, and i wish i had never allowed you into my life, maybe if i hadn't i would still have the friends that i once loved. oh well though it's all in the past. i hope everyone who lets you in their life will see you for you in the very begining and won't allow you to screw with their life and their relationships that they have.

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

Friday, April 18th, 2003
10:49 pm - P.S.
everyone that knows who ross is, he cut his fro today now i am the only one with a fro

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

10:45 pm - another car bites the dust
so my car is gone..ross was driving and got in a car accident..some dumb lady ran a red light and he smashed her..so we have been looking for a new car for me...our first option is to get a jetta or get a 2,000 dollar truck and then we would finance a wave runner...both options sound fun...also we have been figuring out what rent is going to be like once jessie moves out and ross and danielle move in..so many confusing things..

current mood: horny
current music: nothing but ross being an ass

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
4:53 pm - school sucks ass!!
so today is the second day of spring quarter, but the first day for my classes...well actually 3 out of 4 of my classes are tuesday and thursday classes and i have one class on monday and wendesdays...i don't have school on fridays which is cool, but on tuesdays and thursdays my classes go from 11-6:50 that is right i am here for almost 8 hours...i hate it..plus i have to take good old c-tran around the great town of vancouver because my car broke...i have the worst luck with things i swear...so yesterday i was driving home from school when my car decides to just break down right across the street from fort vancouver high school..good thing it broke down there though because if it would have broke down like 3 blocks earlier then i would have been straight in the GHETTO!!! so i won't get home until 8 tonight...damn i need a new car...i wish someone would just hand me like 1 million dollars and be like here aimee go spend all of this money on whatever you want, go on a big fatty shopping spree if you want, go buy yourself a brand new car, buy as many drugs as you want for you and your friends...yah that was a fun fantasy for a second...back to real life...so i owe so many people money and i am a broke hoe who has zero money to her name....i hate life i hate school i hate my car i hate everything right now!!

current mood: bored

(Do Yo Thang)

Saturday, March 15th, 2003
6:24 am - it's been a while
wow everyone i am alive...it's been awhile since i have written in this thing...my life has just been plain jane style for a while but it is finally getting more interesting...i am finally happy with everything. something is happening in my life that has never happened...feelings that i have never felt are happening and i never find myself lonely or depressed...i actually think i am falling in love...i know that ross is deffanently falling in love with me because he told me so much tonight....i never thought someone could ever feel such strong feelings for me...he even tells me i am beautiful when i am jsut feeling ugly...it's so cute today he asked me if he could have a pic of me so i gave him one of me with a cowboy hat on in pullman and he put it in his wallet....wow a guy like me for me and not just to get a piece...it's weird but i kinda like it....

so tonight me joanna chris and ross went to a porn store rolling...wow that just lead to buying almost 200 dollars worth of stuff...here is a list of everything we got just for those of you who want to know...
1.me and jo both got these little vibrater things...let me tell you they are nice
2. me and joanna got sexy little outfits that we pranced around in tonight while wearing the tall black hooker boots...joanna's was red and black and she looked all devilish like and mine is a baby yellow color and i looked all little girlish...it was cool
3. we rented a porn
4. raspberry tasty good stuff
5. ross got a playboy bunny hat(ask me why..i don't know)
6. yellow furry handcuffs

i think that is all...we were there for about 2 hours though...hehe it was fun

the thing that makes me the happiest is to know that all of my friends are happy right now....courtney i want you to know that i am the happiest for you...you are the one person who should never be sad and never not feel loved...i just read alot of your old posts and geez i have never seen you write so many entries that said you were happy...i want to meet him so bad because he just sounds like an awesome guy and that is exactly what you need....i love you!

current mood: rollin
current music: justin timberlake never again

(Do Yo Thang)

Monday, January 27th, 2003
1:16 am - the voice within
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

current mood: lost
current music: justin timberlake nothing else

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

Friday, January 10th, 2003
7:12 pm - And she said take me now
hey everyone i am alive...my has taken a complete 180 degree turn since i wrote in here last. i have my very own apartment. i love life on my own, and it is just as hard as i thought it was going to be. i wish i had lots of money. money that i could just throw out all over the place. i wish i could go shopping everyday and i wish that i could buy everything that i wanted. New years eve was the shit at my apartment. Joanna me courtney and danielle had a vision of what it was going to be like but i honestly didn't think it was going to be that cool. our party ended up being the best party ever. people kept telling me that they had never been to such a cool party. i was quite proud of what we had pulled off. we didn't even have that much to clean up.

(Do Yo Thang)

7:12 pm - And she said take me now
hey everyone i am alive...my has taken a complete 180 degree turn since i wrote in here last. i have my very own apartment. i love life on my own, and it is just as hard as i thought it was going to be. i wish i had lots of money. money that i could just throw out all over the place. i wish i could go shopping everyday and i wish that i could buy everything that i wanted. New years eve was the shit at my apartment. Joanna me courtney and danielle had a vision of what it was going to be like but i honestly didn't think it was going to be that cool. our party ended up being the best party ever. people kept telling me that they had never been to such a cool party. i was quite proud of what we had pulled off. we didn't even have that much to clean up.

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

Sunday, November 24th, 2002
4:33 am - TO THE DINAMO FIVESOME: JOANNA JESSIE COURTNEY AND DANIELLE <3 *AIMEE(THE DANCER)
AND I NEVER THOUGHT I'D FEEL THIS WAY
AND AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED
I'M GLAD I GOT THE CHANGE TO SAY THAT I DO BELIEVE I LOVE YOU
AND IF I SHOULD EVER GO AWAY
WELL THEN CLOSE YOUR EYES AND TRY
TO FEEL THE WAY WE DO TODAY
AND THEN IF YOU CAN REMEMBER
KEEP SMILIN
KEEP SHININ
KNOWING YOU CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON ME
FOR SURE
THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR
FOR GOOD TIMES
AND BAD TIMES
I'LL BE ON YOUR SIDE FOREVER MORE
THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR

WELL YOU CAME AND OPENED ME
AND NOW THERES SO MUCH MORE I SEE
SO BY THE WAY I THANK YOU
AND THEN FOR THE TIMES WHEN WE'RE APART
WELL THEN CLOSE YOUR EYES AND KNOW
THESE WORDS ARE COMING FROM MY HEART
AND THEN IF YOU CAN REMEMBER
KEEP SMILIN
KEEP SHININ
KNOWING YOU CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON ME
FOR SURE
THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR
FOR GOOD TIMES
AND BAD TIMES
I'LL BE THERE FOREVER MORE
THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR

I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH~~~> TO THE HOTTIE, THE GIRLFRIEND, THE DRUG MAMA, AND THE LOVER~~~> FROM THE DANCER

3+1+1=5

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

4:23 am - that's what friends are for
my best friend of all time is coming home tomorrow...the girl that knows me inside and out (besides courtney) the one who is like my other half...the question is will she choose to see me when she comes home or will the greedy bisexual feminist who is only out to steal her away have more priority over me...we will never know until she is home...will my best friend only hang out with me until wendesday only because the fool won't be here until then or will she continue to hang out with me even when she is here...we will never know...i will just sit and wait to see

current mood: lonely

(1 Thang | Do Yo Thang)

Thursday, November 21st, 2002
4:30 pm - this aint nothing but a heartbreak town
well last night i almost did something terrible but something stopped me...i almost wish it wouldn't have stopped me because i kinda liked almost being bad...i would have felt used and been hurt once more, but last night i didn't care at all...it felt good to be wanted again...he kisses soooo sweetly and i miss that...oh well...nothing happened and that is good...

this past weekend was one of the craziest weekends i have ever experienced...here are some of my highlights
-taking my blue dolphin friend
-being with 4 of the most beautifulest girls ever
-dancing all night and not caring about anyone or anything
-not thinking about roman once
-thinking and believing that i was actually beautiful
-seeing NICK CASTILLO
-Nick picking me up and just hugging me soo hard
-getting the best back massage from Nick
-being danielles first girl "tongue" kiss
-kissing everyone of my friends and not caring
-groping jesses boobs all night
-wanting to just jump on ross eaton
-ross coming to the jimmy and wanting to hang out
-sitting in danielles garage for 25352435 hours and just touching everyone
-not being able to get that stupid song out of my head
-going to sharis in the day time
-NEVER SLEEPING
-going to seattle and seeing a hot man
-driving home from seattle at 7 in the morning with danielle and joanna passed out in my car and then going to school all day

current mood: thankful
current music: the dance garth brooks

(Do Yo Thang)

Tuesday, November 12th, 2002
4:59 am - BRING ON THE RAIN!!
wow it's been a long while since i have written in this thing..i guess i have just needed some time to think about things, and that i have done...everything is starting to make sense in my life but things are still very confusing...like roman, me and him are done and it makes me sad..i had so much fun with him, but he decided that he needs to be with a dumb bitch who has done nothing but screwed him over...me and him finally sat down and talked about things, i even cryed during the convo and just let everything out to him...i am still really confused about everything, but i am coping...the convo between us ended with we are gonna start over as friends...we will see how that goes...i wish i were in a movie...movies always seem to end up good no matter what...the ugly bitchy girl always finds mr. right who treats her good...man i wish that is how things really were....

this weekend was oh so very fun..my courtney came home to visit and i was sooooo excited to see her...i told everyone and their mom that the coolest person i know was coming home to see me...thats right was actually coming home to visit me and joanna...out of everyone who has come home to visit courtney and tyler were the first people that have actually attempted to see me...i am really getting sick of people telling me that i need to come visit them or that i need to come pick them up and bring them home when in reality they don't even want to see me they just need a ride and they know that i am a nice person who just so happens to have a car and will do it...it's so hard to think that your best friend is only asking you to come pick her up because she just needs a ride home and not for the fact that she just wants to see you...it's really hard to think that about the person who is supposed to be the closest to you...if i were away to college and i was coming home to visit i would make a point of it to visit everyone of my friends no matter how hard i had to try...i dunno maybe i am just venting...

Another day has almost come and gone
Can't imagine what else could go wrong
Sometimes i'd like to hide away somewhere and lock the door
A single battle lost but not the war cause

Tomorrows another day
And i'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

It's almost like the hard times circle round
A couple drops and they all start coming down
Yah i might feel defeated
I might hang my head
I might be barley breathing but i'm not dead

Tomorrows another day
And i'm thirsty anyway
So bring on the rain

I'm not gonna let it get me down
I'm not gonna cry
I'm not gonna loose any sleep tonight
So bring on the rain

I don't have to make anyone happy but myself and that is exactly what i am trying to do with my life...if people want to get mad at me for the desicions i make then that is fine...19 days till i move into my new apartment

current mood: content
current music: Jo Dee Messina Bring on the rain

(3 Thangs | Do Yo Thang)

Friday, November 1st, 2002
1:42 am - it's over now move over you've been shut down...sorry
me and roman are having such a big fight right now because i told him that i think he is going to get back with michelle and i don't want him to lie to me about it and he is freaking out...he told me to fuck off today and he said that i wasn't what he thought...i don't understand why guys can be soooo evil to me...i just don't understand

(Do Yo Thang)

Sunday, October 27th, 2002
12:17 pm - TO MUCH TO SOON
so i smoked so much last night that i was freaking out...i hate smoking weed because i just get outta hand and i start to think everyone is against me...last night i almost started crying because i really think roman is going to get back with the bitch...maybe it's just because i was being an idiot last night but usually when we lay next to each other he holds my hand or you know touches me somehow..oh last night he deffenantly turned so his back was to me and fell asleep...then last night when i picked him up to come out she was there and he was in her car like nothing was wrong and they were friends...then this morning she calls him because he is going to go get his cell phone reactivated with her and when he is talking to her on the phone he is acting all nice to her and stuff...so then she is on her way to pick him up and usually when i leave or he leaves he kisses me good bye or says bye or i will call you later...but no he just walks out and leaves....i knew this was to good to be true this is how it always is for me...wow i really hope that is just all the weed i smoked talking and i hope it really isn't what is going on...

current mood: crushed

(Do Yo Thang)

Saturday, October 26th, 2002
9:33 pm - a lil quizzie poo
Have you ever...
01. Fallen for your best friend? NOPE
02. Made out with JUST a friend? OH BUT WHO COULD FORGET MEXICO
03. Been rejected? YUP
04. Been in love? NOPE...BOYS ARE TO MEAN TO FALL IN LOVE WITH
05. Been in lust? OH YAH
06. Used someone? NOPE
07. Been used? YUP
08. Cheated on someone? NEVER
09. Been cheated on? NOPE
10. Been kissed? YUP
11. Done something you regret? HAVEN'T WE ALL

Who was the last person...
12. You touched? ROMAN
13. You talked to? RACHEL
14. You hugged? ROMAN
15. You instant messaged? JILLIAN
16. You kissed? ROMAN
17. You had sex with? HM....ROMAN
18. You yelled at? JILLIAN...BUT I APOLOGIZED
19. You laughed with? COURTNEY AND RACHEL
20. You had a crush on? ROMAN
21. Who broke your heart? COURTNEY

Do you...
22. Color your hair? I HAVEN'T FOR AWHILE
23. Have tattoos? YES A FAIRY ON MY LEFT SHOULDER BLADE
24. Piercings? YAH MY NOSE AND EARS...I USED TO HAVE MY BELLY BUTTON BUT I TOOK IT OUT BECAUSE IT WAS STUPID
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? UM...KINDA...I DON'T REALLY KNOW
26. Floss daily? I NEVER FLOSS
27. Own a webcam? NOPE
28. Ever get off the damn computer? MY FRIENDS DON'T THINK I DO BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS SIGNED ON BUT REALLY I DO
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? WHAT THE F#@$
30. Habla espanol? OH MUY GUAPO

Have you/do you/do you have...
40. Considered a life of crime? HELL NO I CONSIDER A LIFE OF WEALTH
41. Considered being a hooker? OH BUT I AM I WORK ON THE CORNER OF MLK IN DOWNTOWN PORTLAND...YA HEARD
42. Considered being a pimp? NO BECAUSE YOU CAN'T BE A HOOKER AND A PIMP AT THE SAME TIME
43. Are you psycho? I HOPE NOT
44. Split personalities? UM...NOPE
45. Schizophrenic? NOPE
46. Obsessive? I DON'T THINK SO
47. Obsessive compulsive? NOPE
48. Panic? SOMETIMES
49. Anxiety? SOMETIMES
50. Depressed? SOMETIMES
51. Suicidal? NEVER
52. Obsessed with hate? HELL NO I ONLE HAVE LOVE
53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? HELL NO
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? UH..NO
55. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? IN MAZATLAN WITH ALL MY FRIENDS AGAIN...THAT WAS THE BEST WEEK OF MY WHOLE LIFE
56. What would you be doing? DRINKING AND PARTYING IT UP WITH ALL MY GIRLS
58. What are you listening to? DIXIE CHICKS
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? MY THUMBS ARE DOUBLE JOINTED...THAT'S ABOUT IT
60. Chicken or fish? CHICKEN
61. Do you have a favourite animal, no matter how lame it may be? I LIKE DOGS

Current Clothes: A PAIR OF BOXERS AND A TANK TOP
Current Mood: BORED
Current Music: DIXIE CHICKS
Current Taste: MAC AND CHEESE...AND SOON A NICE CANCEROUS SCHMAG
Current Hair: JUST STRAIGHTENED IT
Current Annoyance: IDIOT GIRLS WHO FUCKING KEY MY CAR AND DENY IT
Current Smell: BONCH....HEHE JUST KIDDING
Current thing I ought to be doing: MY HOMEWORK BUT I AM GONNA WAIT TILL TOMORROW
Current Desktop Picture: SOME UGLY ASS MONKEYS THAT JESSIE PUT ON HERE
Current Favorite Group: OH I THINK EVERYONE KNOWS THIS ONE NSYNC
Current Book: I AM SUPPOSED TO BE READING THE EDUCATION OF LITTLE TREE FOR MY READING CLASS
Current DVD In Player: I DON'T OWN A DVD PLAYER, BUT THE TAPE THAT I HAVE IN RIGHT NOW IS MY POPODYSSEY TAPE
Current Refreshment: MOUNTAIN DEW
Current Worry: THAT ROMAN IS GONNA START TALKING TO HIS EX AGAIN
Current Crush: ROMAN
Current Favorite Celebrity: OH IT IS AND WILL ALWAYS BE JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE

FAVORITE...
Food: THE NEVER ENDING PASTA BOWL COURTNEY KNOWS HOW THAT GOES
Drink: MAI TAI
Color: I DON'T REALLY HAVE A FAVORITE COLOR
Shoes: CONVERSE
Candy: I DON'T LIKE CANDY BUT I GUESS IT WOULD BE MAMBA
Animal: DOG
TV Show: SURVIVOR
Movie: CRUEL INTENTIONS
Dance: HARLEM SHAKE DOWN HAHA
Vegetable: CORN
Fruit: I HATE FRUIT

ARE YOU...
Understanding: I TRY TO BE
Open-minded: YES
Arrogant: I HOPE NOT
Insecure: SOMETIMES
Interesting: I DUNNO
Hungry: NOPE
Friendly: YUP
Smart: I WISH I WAS..BUT UNFORTANENTLY NO..COURTNEY IS THE SMARTEST PERSON I KNOW
Moody: OH YAH
Childish: YAH
Independent: SOON I WILL BE
Hard working: I TRY TO BE
Organized: I TRY THAT ONE TO BUT IT DOESN'T WORK
Healthy: NOT AT ALL
Emotionally Stable: YAH
Shy: YAH
Difficult: I TRY NOT TO BE
Attractive: NOPE
Bored Easily: OH YAH
Thirsty: NOPE
Responsible: IF I WANT TO BE
Sad: NOPE
Happy: YES VERY
Trusting: YAH
Talkative: YUP
Original: NOPE
Different: IN SOME WAYS
Unique: EVERYONE IS UNIQUE IN THEIR OWN WAY
Lonely: NOPE

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
Kill: MICHELLE...THE ONE WHO KEYED MY CAR...BUT I TO MUCH OF A WUSS TO DO ANYTHING
Slap: AND THE WINNER IS MICHELLE FOR KEYING MY CAR
Look Like: BRITNEY SPEARS
Be Like: ALL OF MY FRIENDS
Talk To Offline: I WOULD HAVE TO AGREE WITH COURTNEY ON THIS ONE JUSTIN CLARK

Name: *AIMEE*
Nicknames: D...DOAN...AIMS...AIM...
Parents nicknames: MO AND FO
Age: 18
Hair coLor:BROWN WITH A LITTLE BIT OF BLONDE HIGHLIGHTS
Birthday: MAY 26TH 1984
Eye Color: BLUE
Siblings: 1 BROTHER AND 1 SISTER
Righty or lefty? RIGHTY
How do you describe yourself: I AM ME...ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME WILL KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS
What's your sign? GEMINI
Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend? UM...I AM KINDA SEEING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT WE ARE THOUGH

On Friends...
Best Friend(s): RACHEL, COURTNEY AND JOANNA
Friend(s) you go to for advice? COURTNEY...SHE UNDERSTANDS ANYTHING
Friend(s) you have the most fun with? I HAVE THE MOST FUN WITH EVERYONE OF MY FRIENDS...I HAVE SO MANY DIFFERENT MEMORIES WITH ALL OF THEM
Friend(s) you've dreamt about? ALL OF THEM
Friend(s) your tell secrets to? I ALWAYS TELL COURTNEY EVERYTHING

On Dating...
Long or short hair? SHORT...NONE OF THIS PONY SHIT...OR SHAGGY...YOU CAN'T GO WRONG WITH THE SHAGGY HAIR
Dark or blond hair? UM...DEPENDS ON THE GUY I DON'T REALLY LIKE WHEN GUYS BLEACH THEIR HAIR...BUT IT JUST DEPENDS
Tall or short? TALL
6 pack or muscular arms? I AM REALLY NOT INTO MUSCLES SO IT DOESNT' MATTER
Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? MR. FUNNY
Good grrL or bad grrL? RIIIGGGHHHHTTT
Dark or light eyes? EITHER
hat or no hat? DEPENDS ON THE GUY
pierced or no? PIERCED IS GOOD BUT NOT PIERCED IS GOOD TO
Freckles or none? UM...IT DOESN'T MATTER
Stubble or neatly shaved? OH STUBBLE IS VERY NICE
Rugged outdoorsy type or sporty type? RUGGED ALL THE WAY
All American, homey G, or grunge? HOMEY G...NO...GRUNGE...NO I GUESS ALL AMERICAN
Accent or American? AMERICAN

on preferences...
Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? HOT CHOCOLATE WITH LOTS OF WHIPPED CREAM
McDonalds or Burger King? BK
Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? PERFECT FRIEND
Sweet or sour? SWEET
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? DO YOU HAVE TO ASK ROOT BEER...I FUCKING HATE THE BEAN
Sappy/action/comedy/horror? COMEDY
Cats or dogs? DOGS
Ocean or Pool? POOL
Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? NACHO CHEESE
Mud or Jell-O wrestling? JELLO
With or without ice-cubes? WITH
Shine or rain? SHINE
Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? SPRING
Vanilla or Chocolate? VANILLA
Snowboarding or skiing? SNOWBOARDING..NOT TO MENTION ALL GUYS WHO SNOWBOARD ARE HOT
Cake or cookies? COOKIES
Cereal or toast? CEREAL...PREFERABLY MARSHMELLOW MATEES
gloves or mittens? GLOVES
Eyes open or closed? I HOPE THIS QUESTION IS ABOUT KISSING...CLOSED...I SOMETIMES PEEK A LITTLE BIT
Fly or breathe under water? FLY
Bunk-bed or waterbed? NEITHER
Chewing gum or hard candy? GUM
Motor boat or sailboat? MOTOR BOAT...THEY ARE FASTER
Lights on or off? OFF
What's your favorite:
Number? 24
Holiday? CHRISTMAS
Radio station? I LIKE THEM ALL
place? MAZATLAN
Flower? ROSE
Scent? LOVE SPELL

current mood: silly

(2 Thangs | Do Yo Thang)

Thursday, October 24th, 2002
12:27 pm
COURTNEY SOUND I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS AND I NEED YOUR CELL NUMBER BECAUSE I NEED TO TALK TO YOU DESPERATLY!!

(Do Yo Thang)

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